im so tired right now.

class ended at 1 30 pm

waited to see the student adviser to learn what classes and module we will be taking next semester. waited so long i almost fell asleep. whole thing ended at 3 30pm

followed king to POSB to deposit money. long Q so waited very long waited for like 45 mins. reached home at 5 30pm.

rest 5 mins

then go stadium run for 30 mins. saw shui xian and her boyfrend there. reached home at 6 45 pm.

bathe and styled my hair. *its so freaking short i had to do smt about it* rested like 5 mins

left house at arnd 7 30 and walk all the way to novena to meet wei sian and wai mun for dinner. journey took 30 mins

and now i am so freaking tired =.=

ok its DAM LATE and i have morning class tmr *hope i am not late again -.-* so i will make this a brief or as brief as i can.

anyway things to note, i woke up at 7 30 am on monday and school starts at 8 30!!! omfg!!! was my reacton at the time. i am NOT going o sleep with my blinds down again. anyway went to class 5 to 10 mins late and i think the teacher was kinda pissed? or maybe she was pissed cos i was toking in class. whatever. esl teacher is an ass who gives us too much work and never returns our assignments anyway. k moving on

ok dun u hate it when the barbers dun cut ur hair the way u want??? anyway i just went to cut hair today and im so freaking pissed at the auntie. i went to ec house at tpy u noe the 10 dollars barber shop? ya ive always been going there since jc. ok never mind the history anyway i told her to cut my hair thin ONLY not to do any other thing. in the end, she go and cut short. now my hair really looks like im from primary school -.-""""" so pissed she even cut off my fringe when and my side burn WHICH i specifically told her not too. ARGHHHHH!!!

oya withdrawed money to pay my mum for using her credit card but then remembered she's not in sg -.- nice watse of my time queing at atm..

k thats all for now nightzzzzzz

my sincerest apologies

dear best friend,

i am very sorry about wad happen yesterday. i was not able to tell that u were already very stressed out by work and played a joke on you. i apologize for lying to you and causing you to worry so much over something that did not happen. i meant to tell u earlier because i tot you were taking my comment too seriously but i suppose you discovered that i was lying first. i know that it is not the first time i have misread situation but i promise you had no idea that it was such a serious issue to you. And also for not understanding the amt of pressure u are having at the moment. And erm sorry for always making fun of you too. ya and erm sorry for making you feel so cheated.

yours sincerely,
zhi qiang

platoon cohesion!!!

its been ages since there was a gathering like this. i would say my platoon mates are lovesssss but that sounds gay. so i will just say that it was a fun gathering although it was rather short *what happen to our LAN after meals??? oh right i still have work to do zzzzz* .

Anyway this gathering was planned like last month but there was much dispute over where to go to eat so we decided on seoul garden. not my first choice but like hardy said it is more of the catching up then anything else.

tired...

its a sad day today.

this morning quan min told me that i suck and that i am useless. that i only know how to push things to other ppl. that she will never do a project with me again. well that makes the 2 of us. all these because i said 1 sentance. that I dun wan to do presentation because i dun have confidence in public speaking. so i told her then wad bout u trying to force me to doing a presentation with u. i was about to say more but cat and weisian scolded me for always arguing with quan min. why dun u guys understand? i am so pissed with the whole situation. its always like this. she starts the argument, i wan to say her back, and then ppl tell me to shut up. as though its my fault. i am so fcking pissed. i am so angry i want to punch some1. i want to shout.

"hey u miserable bitch. i have had it with u always criticizing other ppl except yourself. y the fck can't u accept that not every1 is PERFECT like u???? y the fck are u always so agitated towards me??? WHY THE FCK DO U INSIST THAT I HAVE TO DO THE PRESENTATION WITH YOU??? wtf we dun even work well together!! "

but i dun. i swallow my anger and bury it within me. as usual. because if i say something. i get told to shut up. she gets away with it. she gets away with scolding me and putting me down. making all those derogatory remarks. and then i have to smile and tok kok like nothing ever happened.

to say i feel wronged, to say that im aggrieved, is an understatement.

then later on in the day king got angry because i throw his wallet at him. he was REALLY angry. i do not understand y. he was so angry that he shouted at me. no 1 said anything. again i was in the wrong. he always makes the angry face for fun. even wai mun and Benjamin tot he was joking. but he was REALLY angry. i am taken aback. he shouts at me and no 1 says a thing. no1 except quan min that is. who said some like " thats y u are so fcked up "

wad to say at a time like this? i sms him sorry. no reply. but thats the best i can do for now. now i feel so bitter. i cannot explain it. i feel as though the whole world is against me. and i am not even given a chance to defend myself. im so tired of all these. so really fcking tired......

of cos there was a short meeting later. i could not bring myself to say anything. i coud not even bring myself to hear wad they were discussing. the bitterness was gnawing at my heart. basically i was zombiefied. i heard quan min say something derogatory about me but i wasnt really listening. only caught the words some ppl and fck.

my friends dun understand... how bitter i feel right now.

and this bitterness. its killing me. its eating me inside out.

suddenly i feel so alone. again.

maybe a run will make things better...

=(

Activation energy not enuf

last night. after gym. time to do my essay. look at time. 11 30 pm. ok its too late to start work time to sleep. end up chatting on msn till 1 plus.

this morning. ok time to start on essay. but weather too nice. wan...to...slp...more....ok decide to study econs. essay leave for tonight.

tonight. OK lets start on my essay! take out all my essay outlines and draft. aiya sian play guitar. aiya sian go fb. aiya sian go gym. suddenly tot about activation energy thus my title. come back bath and all. oh too late to start work liao. OK I WILL DO MY ESSAY TMR!!! I SWEAR!!!

tomorrow. aiya sian....

anyway it feels good to be back in the gym. i kinda like the soreness of the muscles which u get the next day after a good work out. maybe im a masochist after all =/ it also makes me more awake for some reason. unlike running. running makes me feel more tired... zzzzzz

A brief respite

All right, psy project is over and done with, there are no tests this week and so urgent assignments to hand in. *deep breath* WHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWW!!!!

but more work is to come.... debate, essays and the psy presentation... haizzz... oh not to mention studying econs because i haven been listening in class.

well its better than my JC days i suppose...

haven been to the gym in AGES... i feel so weak now. Now that my new tub of protein powder is in, its time to get back in shape!!!!!

recently the area around my mouth has been getting very dry again. in fact it got so dry i felt like my mouth was on fire. This dryness thing only started some time last year and my uncle *who is a skin doctor* said its eczema and has no cure. question is. how the hell did i get eczema in the first place??? and are u sure it is supp to hurt???

well so far ive been keeping the dryness in check by putting moisturizer everytime after i bath. bleh. maybe it would not have been so bad if i had started using moisturizer when it first started happening. blame it my pride i guess *mind u, i still think only girls use moisturizers* well mine is different. its MEDICAL.

relationship problems are a bitch. well, in my opinion, i think that in order for a relationship to work out there has to be trust as well as the ability to take some and lose some. i mean, sure, i dun think there is anything wrong with wanting to see or at least talk to ur better half every single day. But when u start getting angry because its not happening....well... i only have 1 word to describe it.... STICKY. i mean come on, i dun think at this stage of a relationship you shld expect the other party to have to think about you ALL the time. Im pretty sure that even if U dun have anything better to do, it dosen mean the other party is as carefree as you right?

im just saying u know, not pointing fingers at any1. well actually, i am pointing fingers at all of you ppl who think that puppy love lasts forever. after the initial attraction is gone, what left is attachment. and in order for the relationship be happy u need to be able to accept each others bad points. after all no 1 is perfect ya?

like i said im just saying. im not a dating book. its just my opinion.

i wonder y some people like to criticize others without looking at them selves first. also some people like to scold others things like stupid, idiot too freely. it makes me wonder if they are actually trying to test the other persons patience or just looking for a fight. and the best part is when these people call some1 else stupid or square even if they are the ones who could not understand what ppl are trying to explain to them in the first place. why ar? why got dis kind of ppl?

im afraid it is getting harder to ignore this behaviour of urs. like i mentioned to some1. u are like a bird who is continuously shyting on my head and i keep telling myself nah its not the bird's fault. it prob ate smt wrong or had a bad day. but one day im gonna have a bad day as well and i am gonna take a shotgun and shoot ur head off.

im just saying.

as you can see, my flow of tots are just getting more and more negative. thats y kouping urself at home is no good. 1 needs to go out and chill with frens. It would be best is if u can havoc with some havoc frens but im assuming that now most ppl are already matured and have lost some of thier passion for fun.

all right, its time for exercise and then back to my never ending work. cheers!

cat's 19 birthday

this post is late but here it is. we went to alumni at ngee ann poly * thanks wei han for the intro!* to celebrate cats birthday last tuesday. supposed to do it on monday but she never come -.- anyway alumni serves pretty good food *so far so good, well better then megabites* with a nice restaurant environment but its kinda ex =/anyway its was a surprise celebration so ya it succeeded cos she is so oblivious. *king and wei sian left to collect the cake for quite a while and she never suspected a thing* if it was me they would have to deploy a squadron to distract me or i will be poking my nose into everything.

dear john

SO i came home after my psychology test... tired but relieved that the test and mad rush to complete essays are over.... and decide to browse some of my frens blogs... blah blah blah bf birthday...emo post... some random shyt i dun understand...yea yea whatever... AND then i saw this post on Wikipedia's definition of a dear john letter.

A "Dear John letter" is a letter written to a husband or boyfriend to inform him their relationship is over, usually because the author has found another lover. Dear John Letters are often written out of an inability or unwillingness to inform the man in person. The reverse situation, in which someone writes to his wife or girlfriend to break off the relationship, is referred to as a "Dear Jane letter."

My first thought was wth is this for real.... haha which loser would invent a term for such a thing.... then hey wait.... omg.... wtf.... ive been dear johned.

and then it wasnt funny any more.

-.-

ok recently ive not been slping enough because of project work and essays and test. today i overslept. i usually wake up at 6 but i woke up at 6 45 today. i was still able to catch the express bus though but it was dam rush. then when i reached home i decided to take a short nap before doing my math online quizz. in the end slept all the way to 5pm....then rush to go to amk to meet boon, wl and yh.

ate dinner at some jap restaurant then went to play arcade. there is the new tank game where u can team up to 4 players to complete 2 missions or play against each other. It was EPIC fun!!! ehhh we could not complete the 2nd mission after trying 3 times so we played free for all. AND BOON KEPT MARKING AND KILLING ME!!! GRRRRR. well...it dosen matter cos i WON in the end... ok not really...boon and i had the highest kill streak... But ay dam bias la only target me... -.-

ok then we went to play the new bishi bashi game all the way to the end... then wasted like 17 dollars trying to catch some soft toy from those UFO catchers type of machines. well we had a chance... just that suay haha.

Well I hope that EVERYONE had fun and will manage to find some solution to whatever bf problems you all have. haiz.. relationship issues are a major pain in the ass....

and so is esl homework...i just had to add that..lol

Xue min, Li Fang and Li jun's 21 birthday celebration

GUESS who i saw at xue min's BBQ??? PEIRU!!! lol! You guys shld have been ther it was classic. When i reached the bbq pit, peiru came to tok to xue min. then jing mei was like "eh....eh...eh..." Then i was like "pe....pe... pe..... PEIRU!!!" Then she saw me and screamed... -.- in her peiru way of screaming of cos lol.

FYI peiru is a jc fren whereas xue min is my sec sch fren.

Anyway i, zx and pek ha stayed there for a while and then left to the twins party. When i reached there lf came to greet us *or was it lj?* i was about to say "hey hi li fang" when i saw the sister walking around and i became confused so i kept my mouth shut -.- The chalet was dam crowded and the cake was the same as kx's cake *refer to my previous post for pic* except much bigger! *i tot they were carrying a coffin when they brought the cake out*

click read more for the photos. Decided to do this as the photos makes the blog very messy.

Note that not all the photos are mine. some is i koup from other ppl's album in facebook



Xue min's cake. i think its homemade?


Li fang and li jun's cake!! looks familiar??? and its bigger too!

Hell of a week

This week has been really crazy.

Monday do after school had a project meeting that went pretty bad in which a group member scolded me a mad dog for no reason * fcking irritating story..*, at night worked on esl research as well as some pst project stuff.

Tuesday after school do compiling from esl group members, put esl research material into powerpoint and do MLA format. slept at 1 30 am and woke up at 6am -.-

Wed is the esl presentation but lucky i wasen presenting. then after that go home and chiong psy project. stayed up till 12 am to wait and push for group members to hand in thier works.

Thursday woke up at 8am to compile and edit the works from the psy project group members. go sch come back headache but cannot slp need continue editing the psy project. * Almost the whole group gave me half assed work: had to rephrase entire paragraphs and correct simple grammatical and sentence structure problems that they did not even bother to proof read -.- * did the best i could then i gave up editing. i mean if my group members do not bother to read through their own work y should i do it for them? -.- its a miracle that i had managed to create some sort of order and coherence from the utter chaos that was before me... anyway thanks boon for helping me organise the stuff neater.

whole week staring at the words on the computor doing MLA, APA, cutting and pasting, editing and correcting, words words words. k i wun say my joke here cos some1 say its not funny =(

So now its friday and i only have today to finish my journal and essay. SO im taking this chance to blog to get my creative juice flowing. My journal topic is "the 3 things i would save if my house is on fire" so i decided to go google the question. here are some comments i saw that made me grin:

I would try to put out the fire with all my life. But if it's really hopeless, I'd sit down by the fire, cry and burn some marshmallows while waiting for the firefighters to come.

GOD forbids...but i will save my familly first....followed by my potted plants...coz they are also living things...and i jaga them like i jaga my sons...*wtf, so u bring ur plants out on sundays?*

i do exactly lk what god taught me, tk pics and later claim insurance.* u mean god claims insurance?*

Don't know yet.. but will tell you after I attend the Fire Fighting course this Thursday...

 

haha if only i could include these comments in my jounal >< but i cant so ya i have to put it on my blog. Btw ive been having a headache since thursday math class * i even forgot how to do simple differentiation for a moment..* haiz next week psy test somore... its going to be another looooong week...

help! too much things to do!!!

i stop thinking

i was eating breakfast and browsing tru the comic section of the newspaper. when i saw this comic on baby blues. read it. its funny.




lol i like how the small guy says "i stop thinking" so matter of factly hahaha

now that small guy is called hammie and the girl is called zoe. as u can see hammie has got things figured out. instead of fighting the noise like his sister does, he just....well...he just stops thinking lol... you see how he just nips the problem in the bud?

zoe was probably thinking as she covered her ears: "aaarggghhh still too noisy!!!"

and hammie probably went: "....blank..." but hey, who is the happier 1? lol

now this would probably be akin to saying things things like: " school is too tough....i shld stop schooling " or even " wow life is a bitch.....i should stop living". but before any of u start going: " oh man....another of zqq's wierd theories..." *you know who u are!!!* think about it for a moment.

some things in life are just that simple. ever had 1 of those instances where u keep thinking or worrying about something? questioning things like what if? why he/she is lidat? if only? ur mind becomes a well of voices and it causes u to become emo or even angry? well this is wad i call thinking too much. girls are usually guilty of it. of cos im not saying guys dun do that but mostly girls do it and i feel for the bfs of those girls who are always thinking too much *god save thier souls* anyway when it comes to thinking too much, just stop thinking. simple as that. do something else. there is no point in thinking and getting all upset on smt that u are not even sure of. the worst thing to happen is to think too much and actually believe what wierd conclusions u come out with.

just had a brush with some1 who tot too much. ok so there is this project meeting that was supp to take place on mon but was pushed to wed cos this person and some others never do thier work for the meeting. then on tues this person came to ask me to push back the meeting date to friday. so i said smt like i dun want to delay the meeting any longer because im supp to do the collating of all the work and if we keep delaying, i dunno wad other test or work we are going to get later on and it will be difficult for me then. well, i tot i made my point quite clear. but apparently the person got so pissed of with me she didnt want to tok to me and called another of my group member to ask me to go and die. normally, i try to keep my temper in check but this takes the cake! i cannot stand some1 being angry at me and not giving me a chance to vindicate myself! *i called her and she rejected me* especially when i think that i shld be angry at her for not doing her work in the first place! ok just telling u that i was pissed too but thats not the point of this story.

apparently what this person was so angry at me for is because she felt i was being proud and saying that im the most impt person in the group because im doing the collating. she also said that if i feel stress or unhappy about doing the collating i shld tell the grp and that she feels that every1 shld be treated equally.

oook i seriously dunno how in the world she managed to see me in such a bad light, maybe some1 can explain it to me? =.= anyway the crisis has been solved although i still do not understand how did this misunderstanding come about.

speaking about this incident makes me think about another issue that has been on my mind for a while. but i already spend like 1 hour on this post lol. ok so thats it for today. time to stop thinking =)

kx birthday celebration

just for ur info guys, ntuc and shop and save dosen't sell whiskey, vodka or rum they only sell wine, beer and some other types of spirits. i travelled from toa payoh to bishan to ang mo kio and then to the cold storage at novena just to find some whiskey. gd thing i found wad i want in novena, or i would have to go all the way to carefour at ps =.=

anyway went to a bbq at kx's place with zx and wh yest. how was it? well...it sucked *no offence bro*...and for many reasons. firstly this bbq was planned by his parents for all his relatives, so u can imagine how crowded it was and almost every1 being an unfamiliar face. secondly, only 3 of us were able to make it, other frens were busy. Thirdly, we were only there from 8 to 10.30 so basically we just ate, made some small talk and then left. BORING.

well on the bright side, i get to see wh whom i haven met for AGES. oh and that the food is free! LOL



THE COLOSSAL CAKE. BIGGEST CAKE IVE EVER SEEN.

i now pronounce u husband and wife hahahahahaha!


well, i guess this is the closest i can get to the wedding ceremony i was NEVER invited to LOL

apparently this rather ordinary looking watermelon cost $100 and is from tokyo...still, no thanks =) unless of cos it belongs to an unnamed samurai who defeated an entired army single handedly and from the blood soaked land sprouted this 1000 year old melon... still nah...i'll pass..

interesting story. the white dog peed on the floor and the brown dog went to drink the pee... erm who wants to finish my drink?

k now back to my essay and psy project...bleh..

watched Alice in wonderland today. i would'nt say its a bad show but i wun say its a good show either. there is something about seeing a children's fairy tale character in a lord of the ring kind of fight scene that puts me off. i feel the director tried to rojak too many genres of movies together such that it is kinda wierd. well its just me i guess lol.

ok im going to try something new. gonna mimic wen hui's style of blogging. here goes nothing!

ouch

i was washing my hands just now when i felt a slight pain on my right index finger. so i took a closer look at it and there was a *gasp* huge paper cut on my finger! it looked quite fresh; i went to squeeze the cut to open it up and i saw the first sign of blood. ouch. and i dun even know how or when i got it. =/

anyway i was browsing ub learns and found out how to check my mid term maths results. i got 91%. i was kind of disappointed because i tot i had a pretty high chance of getting full marks. =/ oh well life goes on..

anyway, good luck to all those getting thier A level results tmr!!!

ouch. i should stop playing with my wound. *clicks publish post with middle finger*

im so tired.

just now tot of alot of things to blog. then after going for a run, im too tired to blog now. bleh. its like they say in bmt, shag cannot think.

You know how they say to be careful wad u wish for? jan was quite slack for me so i was thinking if only i had more stuff to do then i wun be so bored. so this month, psy project, esl homework, esl research, esl debate *NOTE HOW MANY TIMES ESL APPEARED!!!*, birthday parties to attend, birthday presents to buy. its going to be a busy month. ok la prob not as bad as taking accountancy at nus *points at some1* OR some1 who works, go db training, and take dance *points at some1 else*

hmmm, now i feel bad for complaining. lol

anyway i dunno y our esl teacher keep giving us so much work. she is the only 1 who consistently gives us hw to do. AND i DUN deal well with hw! wads more she seems to have trouble marking all the essays we have handed up to her. we haven receive our 2nd journal and we just handed in the 3rd journal today. and she still got our mid sem essays to mark. some1 has to tok some sense into her. not me of cos, if i did that i would be expelled for harassment. =.=

oya this morning my mum asked me if i wanted to earn some extra money. 15 dollars per week to vacuum the floor 2 times per week. so i said lets make it 20. then she started going on about how she take care of me so long bla bla bla. then i told her my econs teacher said smt about demand and supply and i went on to amaze myself by explaining reservation price and opportunity cost O.O then i quoted the econs teacher on how he said there is no altruism or love in the world *he really said that* lol. then she said wah i pay so much for ur school fees for them to teach u this kind of things ar? im going to complain. lol its funny because....wait i dunno y its funny it just is =.=

woah so in the end i blogged quite alot >< k whatever im so tired now that i cannot think straight good night guys. wish me luck for my maths results tmr!

50th post!

Wow. It has only been like 2 months and i have already hit my 50th post. my previous blog has only 160 post and i used it for my 2 years in jc. haha i must have been really free and really bored to have reached 50 post in 2 months. well, i guess i shall commemorate my 50th post by looking back at these 2 short but interesting months.

ok so the year began on a pretty bad note. after coming back from japan, i had a very bad fallout with my parents and completely lost my appetite which did not return till close to the end of the month. my computer was then infected with some virus which i could not get rid of so i had to reformat it. there went all my games. school started and there was some trouble adapting to school life after 2 years in NS. Started having insomnia. Had some trouble sorting out my emotions as well, which were running haywire ever since the start of the year until i felt like i was suffering from depression.

However, i picked myself up thanks to the help of my very understanding and tolerable frens who had to bear with my incessant rants and complains. And then i fell sick. But it was nothing to worry about. my appetite and insomnia recovered with my flu. And zqq was back in the game!

now let me introduce the people who make life fun in SIM =)



This picture was taken when we celebrated wei sian's birthday at fish and co. Yea i know i never blogged about it. too lazy lol.

anyway these ppl are from my business major classes except for second person from the right who is majoring in psy *kicks her away* There is actually 1 more girl who is part of our clique but whatever she will be in the next pic. from the left to the right, their names goes as follows:

king: the resident nerd. only 1 who bothers to rewrite his notes after school. also the king of taking unglam pics of other ppl LOL. also the oldest in the group.

wai mun: the emo kid. always emoing. ONLY REPLIES CALLS AND SMS TO HIS GF, never to us =.= after school, he goes home to STANDBY in case his gf calls him to go out.

zqq: the awesome. nuff said =)

wei sian: i just devoted a entire post to her. read WARNING ALL!!!! watch ur step. oh she is from same sec school as me! =D

wen hui: aka hagaan das girl. also the person who's blog inspired me to start blogging again =) also prob the ONLY person in UB who reads my blog =/

Quan min: The godlike *because she knows EVERYTHING* aka the english (esl) teacher *because she looks like her* aka the always very stress about work. aka the person who always purposely try to pick a argument with me =.=


My clique! but clique sounds gay bleh... taken by me using king's phone. i like how wai mun seems to be acting cute =)

cat: at the most right. the youngest in the group. i think 17 or 18? lol. she is a model from taiwan leh! go see her fb for pics lol. oh also the one who likes to pick fights with king lol *see its always the girls who start the fight!*


ok yea so this ends my 50th post special.

ps: hi boon haha!