hey soul sister

my HTC desire just came in yesterday. but guess wad? i found a tiny scratch at the bottm left of the screen! its either a scratch or dead pixel. it's kinda tiny but hey..... i did not pay 200 plus dollars for a non perfect item. called the hot line and they said they dun do replacements for promotion items. but the guy said he will email the relevant departments and sms me if anything can be done =(


anyway i was surfing the net and thinking about wad to do for my music presentation due next week as well as a music journal *shld i do a video or smt?* when i saw that soul sister by train is the top searched for guitar tab!! so i went to hear the song and tried it on the guitar and here it is!! its not perfect as i only played it a like wad less than 10 times and for some reason i had trouble with the rhythm of the song. especially at the " hey soul sister" part whoooo see how my fingers fly at that part! also had trouble with a short"rap" part but oh well just a short part anyway.

oya the video is inverse because i think it looks cool! =)



yea yea i know i need new strings but i dunno how to choose and no one who knows wants to accompany me to get =/

anyway i posted the video as i tot it was rather nice even if u dun think so. ok time for a short nap before continuing my search for inspiration!

upset

im pretty upset now because some guy offered a insincere apology. it is really disgusting to see ppl acting all honorable and such when they are in the wrong. until u can convince me that i was the one at fault or that u are really ready to make amends, there will never be peace between us. till then u and ur "frens" can continue to badmouth me for all i care. it is as much of my business as a dog taking a dump at the other side of the world.

another win!!

i, ben and wai mun went marina square again yesterday after music. i won my doraemon toy after 8 dollars! but it was a tyco shot haha after that the rest of the money was spend helping ben to get his tissue box =) ben and wai mun are now addicted to the scooping machine now lol. oya a doraemon toy fell on ben's head too haha


my soft toys!! actually i dun really keep soft toys so if anybody wants to buy or trade with me please tell me =) btw the small mickey mouse was free as ben found it uncollected in 1 of the machines.

ma pride and joy!

credits go to wei sian for the pics.



Boo!

The doraemon toy fell on my head just as i got the monster toy. ma lucky charm. must get that next time haha


exchange for 2 of these monster toys. ws wanted the poo bear but all taken.

going to get my new phone tmr!! probably a HTC desire =D

hey i heard this place the odds quite good one..

today i reached school late of about 10 mins and tot i could not enter econs class as the lecturer said before that latecomers are to only come in at the next break. so i went to the lib and sat down thinking wad to do. then king told me that vera had just entered the class so i tot, wth i shld just go in too. so i entered the class like 25 mins late. Before i even sat down the teacher started shooting me with questions like what is singapore's GDP last year and stuff relating to GDP, which i know NUTS about -.-

then after that was acc, which i felt like sleeping halfway because i ate too much for lunch. bad choice. couldnt understand what the lecturer was talking about calculating retained earnings. lucky got ben and wai mun teach me. i guess it was just me cos the others seem to understand himn pretty well =/

anyway after that went to marina square with wei sian, king and Ben. Went to the marina sands casino and hotel. the whole place look dam nice la especially the hotel! too bad we could not find a ay into the sky garden at the top =(

after that ate at hotpot culture. Its like a steamboat buffet thing but each person gets his own steamboat; not share 1 giant 1. total spend 21 dollars there and ate until kau kau. kau kau until i feel like puking lol.

It was quite late already so we walked around for abit. past by the ufo catching machine place near the dbs atm. then i told Ben the gambler

"hey i heard this place the odds quite good one"

In the end i and ben keep psychoing each other to play. ben spend like 20 dollars plus and i around 15 dollars. THIS is why i made a vow to myself not to gamble with money!!! cause i cant stop!!! ben and i keep telling each other " ay almost almost i think next try can!!!" hahaha in the end spend so much. lol and wei sian and king just watched us splunder our money.

HOWEVER i managed to catch 2 soft toys at the same machine!!! whooo!! this was after i observe this dam pro guy catch the toy. then i mastered his trick haha. gave one toy to wei sian and i kept the other 1!! at first see the toy like ugly but the more i see it the more cute it is lol. anyway pics are in king and wei sian's phone so i will post it when they post it on face book!

till then, good mood!! =)))

Sooo school has started. and it feels so sian. everyone is having their holidays now except me =(((( Our break is just too short =/

anyway ive been feeling quite sian these few days. in fact i feel more sian than i felt when i just started school. it seems as though something is missing in my life but i dunno wad. i dun really know how to say it so i will just write wad comes to my mind here. the feeling is so annoying, like ther is something wrong but u dunno wad it is. alright.

after the timbre session, i found myself thinking abit. wad i feel towards others may not be wad others feel towards me. i know that i place alot of faith in friendship. im not close to my family, and frens are so impt to me. However the years have shown me that friendships are not everlasting. my best fren in secondary school cheated my money. apparently while i still look at him as a good fren, the action was not reciprocated in kind. it is really troubling to me.

alright so the thing now is perhaps i give ppl too much credit than i should. take this new fren i made at the beginning of the year for example. although i felt mistreated, i still tolerated it till the day he took it too far. And well, now i have a permanent dislike of that person. And then the timbre day. well, i enjoyed myself. but after a while i start to wonder if the rest felt the same. 2 ppl were on the verge of breaking up at that time. 1 person did not like the crowd but didnt say anything. the couples were .... well, lets just put it as "talking" to each other. its like suddenly u realize that u are alone there, the only one laughing at ur own jokes. when u talk, u are just entertaining urself. the other ppl, although they laugh at with you, are actually feeling troubled or at the very least, not as happy as they could be if i wasnt there. etc, i want to hang out with this fren and he or she claims the same too but in TRUTH, they want to hang out with their bf gf. I dunno bout you but it feels like im enjoying myself at the expense of everyone else.

and so when i think like this, it makes everything seem like its not worth it. suddenly friendship is so shallow. It is as if i have bee lying to myself this whole time. y should i treat u so nice when u dun treat me the same? they say to treat others the way u wan others to treat u. but if they dun treat u the same then how? y shld i trust u with my secrets when u dun trust me with yours? y do i always think that ppl are naturally nice, when they actually wan to take advantage of u? i wonder... i really wonder..

timbre substation

guess wad?? these are the only nice pics i got last night because its so difficult to take pic of ppl if they keep covering their faces or deleting my photos! BTW the 1 on the left is a classic martini and the right 1 is a french martini. the french martini is fruity and light, very nice =)

So YESterday, I , chen boon, kai xiong, wei ling, yi hui, jun yu and siew ling went to Timbre: substation to chill....actually chill isnt really the right word to use... sweat would better describe what we were doing there. from city hall, we literally fast marched all the way to timbre cause wl had made a reservation at 8, and we left cityhall at 7 45? THAT and the weak fans made the place unbearably hot.

So we stayed ther till 1 30 am *timbre closes at 2am*. it started raining after a while and it was good as it made the place more cooling. the live band was nonexistent so we entertained ourselves by toking kok *or maybe its i entertained myself =)* and playing drinking games *the ones my og played the previous time at timbre*

ANYWAY, added a pic to my header as well as a fish game! cute right?? Reminds me of the baby catfish used as bait for prawning lol. please tell me if it lags ur com or anything lol. The guy on the pic is Zack Fair. Yep thats me!! *what? my blog add is youcancallmezack right? lol* =D now this guy, represents who i strife to be... carefree, optimistic, funny and loyal to the very end. Not to mention being able to wield a big ass sword like it was nothing. Aanndd no. i did not name myself after this guy =)

prawn prawn prawn

Bleddy SAF make me go back camp for like half day just for some stupid power point that was already covered in our ORD quiz. the guy said they will pay us for the half day. well... THEY HAD BETTER.. to cover the cost of my taxi fare -.-"

went prawning with king, wen hui, benjamin *dad*, wei sian *mum* and yun ting at the bishan prawning placee. kai ting, qm and cj was also supp to come but backed out on the day itself due to unforeseen circumstances.

catch rate was kinda slow and i felt the staff were kinda unfrendly, maybe cos i cannot speak chinese then they attitude me or maybe cause king exceeded the time by 30 mins =)) other than that, i enjoyed myself thoroughly. It helped that the first prawn was caught by me! *first blood! high five!!!* and that a frendly uncle *thanks to wen hui* gave us his catch of i think 15 prawns? I only know we had 30 prawns in the end.

pessimism

i woke up this morning thinking about pessimism and optimism. well actually it has been on my mind since last week =/ i would like to consider myself as an optimist, and that pessimism as always being bad. however im pretty sure that as with everything else, there are always 2 sides to the story and so i decided to google it.

apparently, optimism is over hyped. everyone is toking about how good or bad optimism is. but hardly anyone has anything good to say about pessimism. however after searching a while i came across a few articles toking about how pessimism is good. some things in the article are just irrelevant, like "pessimist are always contented with what they have" *erm isnt that a bit of optimism?*

pessimism has its own benefits too. pessimists are more realistic. they do not sugar coat the situation and thus are able to see the potential flaws. example: a optimist may see a beautiful rose and try to pick it up. the pessimist reminds him that roses have thorns.

The second rather interesting point i saw is that pessimist are usually better judges of character. this is because pessimist are more prone to depression, not the serious type, probably just the mild "i am sad" type. and it has been proven that a depressed person is more likely to be able to identify people who are lying, thus are able to identify pretentious ppl better.

The third point *jeez i feel like im writing a composition -.-* is that pessimist deal better with setbacks. i am not sure how much i agree with on this point as i think it can be argued both ways, but i felt that the argument provided to support this was valid. firstly, pessimist usually do not expect to succeed in wadever they do, so when they experience setbacks or failure, they will be like " oh i expected it " as compared to someone who expects to succeed but fails, in which then his disappointment will be greater.

OK so for those of you who have been convinced that pessimist > optimist but do not know how to get about being 1, here is a eHow on how to do it. the webby is here. Its kinda interesting so take a look even if u do not agree =)

anyway for those of you who know me well knows that i like quotes because they make me sound more intelligent than i really am. So here are some interesting quotes about pessimism that shld get u all thinking a little =)

oh btw if u are a die hard pessimist u may not wan to read on as many quotes are pro optimism..

“Pessimist: One who, when he has the choice of two evils, chooses both.” ~Oscar Wilde



"Optimist: someone who figures that taking a step backward after taking a step forward is not a disaster, it's a cha-cha." ~Robert Brault



“A pessimist is one who feels bad when he feels good for fear he'll feel worse when he feels better.” ~unknown



“The man who is a pessimist before forty-eight knows too much; if he is an optimist after it he knows too little” ~Mark Twain



“I'm a pessimist because of intelligence, but an optimist because of will” ~Antonio Gramsci



“In the long run the pessimist may be proved right, but the optimist has a better time on the trip.” ~Daniel L. Reardon



“It's easy to cry when you realize that everyone you love will reject you or die.” ~Chuck Palahniuk



“Don't ever become a pessimist, Ira; a pessimist is correct oftener than an optimist, but an optimist has more fun--and neither can stop the march of events.” ~Robert A. Heinlein



“Both optimists and pessimists contribute to our society. The optimist invents the airplane and the pessimist the parachute.” ~G. B. Stern



“He is a real pessimist - he could look at a doughnut and only see the hole in it” ~unknown



"The nice part about being a pessimist is that you are constantly being either proven right or pleasantly surprised." ~George F. Will, The Leveling Wind




and the best and most practical quote goes to........




"Always borrow money from a pessimist, he doesn't expect to be paid back." ~Author Unknown

woah i had this very wierd dream....and its weirder still cos it was very vivid. hmmm i guess that may be becos i just woke up though, so the dream is still fresh. not really an interesting dream... but since i can remember it so clearly y not note it down?


i dreamed that i was at some outdoor pool where u can order food with 2 unknown frens. it was night time but i noticed the distinct blackness of the sky as there were no stars nor moon. so i ordered this meal which i remember very clearly as costing $8.90...weird right? ok so anyway the food took very long to come so these unknown frens decided to leave first to go study. yes study. and then it started to drizzle. so i was there alone and hungry and so i ate the leftovers of what the friends left behind. i remember it being jelly, custard and big bowl of mashed potato salad. i was about to leave when the food arrived. my food was a freaking huge bowl of lobster brisque, and a huge platter which had like 10 sausage mcmuffins and decorated with all the salami, ham, pepperoni. And then started pouring. i ate and ate and ate but the food seemed never ending, so i call for some1 to help me. just as i was calling, oh and i was using a iphone btw -.-, yea so just as i was calling, my camp mates suddenly appeared in the scene and sat down to chat. The rain stopped. i told them to help me finish the food but li ju said "too last minute". then just as hardy was about to tell me something i woke up.


ok school is starting next week, how did i spent my holidays? 3 weeks holiday. first week was basically gaming away, other then jeeva's chalet and ironman 2. the 2nd week was all gyming, running and staying up till 3 am in the morn or going out with friends till late at night.

oh yea just last wed wei sian, king and wai mun came my house in the aftnoon to play wii and watched avatar. kinda surprised none of them had watched it yet. after that we spent like what? 1 hour? deciding where to go for dinner. in the end decided on V8 at bugis junction there. it was already like 9 30 then so they were taking last order and all. after that we walked all the way to some tau hui shop and on the way there we met syrahil *is that how u spell it? lol* after that we went to the airport hotel and then terminal 3 or 2 and slacked at the TCC there until around 2 am. after which wei sian drove us all home =)

yea all these late nights are causing me to wake up at 11 am the next morning like today.

ok for the 3rd week which is this week, yesterday stayed at orchard till 12 am =), prawning on wed, go camp on thurs *HAIIZZZZ*, then go timbre on fri. Well i guess i am glad i would be meeting all my frens this week, including my ns frens in camp =/ just that the tot going going back camp in army uniform is just......so dam sian......bleh

SO ANNOYING!!!!

SO DAM IRRITATED LA. my parents keeps saying im a jiu gui wtf and i dun even drink much!!! -.- ever since that time bought back a few small bottles of alcoholic drinks to treat my insomia they keep telling me i drink too much! wtf i am so pissed. just cos the last few nights ive been coming home late *late means after 11 to them -.-* dosen mean ive been drinking and even if i did wad the hell does it got to do with them?? wth suddenly come and say ay qiang dun drink too much leh not good for health. I SAID I NEVER DRINK y u all keep insisting!!! then when i tell them that my mum will say ay y u talk so rudely to me?? wtf its really getting on my nerves. that time also keep insisting i smoke because some fcker throw cigarette down from the top floor and landed in my room's window ledge. bleddy hell almost had a big argument over that -.- u see its this kind of thing that makes that makes me lose any respect for u. tok about wad trust in the family all bullshyt. u dun even know wad is happening and so quickly make fcked up judgments. if i really become a jiu gui it will because u all keep saying that i am 1 -.-"""""

so dam annoying

dream

did you ever had a dream in which felt so real that u wake up all flustered and ... well "emotional" in the sense that u retain the emotion u were having in the dream even after awaking?

well its kind of common for me as i usually remember dreaming of death, usually by gunshot or some horrible death, and when the last breath leaves me i wake up in a state of shock sweating all over. its NOT that i USUALLY dream of this kind of stuff its just that when it happens, the feeling is so disturbing that i remember it. i think someone once told me that it means that my spirit has gone to hell and came back o.O well i will just put it down to too much call of duty or warcraft or whatever... im going off topic lol

so anyway just a few nights back, i had this dream, or nightmare if you would. about a person i dislike alot. lets name the person A. A for asshole that is but back to the story. I cannot really remember the details exactly but we were in a group. then cannot remember wad happened but it must be something catastrophic, like an invasion or smt, cause thats how my dreams usually go. WHAT i remember most clearly was at the end, i was separated from the group and cursing A. apparently, because of A's selfishness, A has doomed the group to a certain death and it still felt like it was not in the wrong.

well, i did not dream long enough to die but i woke up with an intense and, i guess u could say renewed hatred for A.

Yea yea i know. wad a fcked up way to hate someone i know. the thing is, ok lets just say ive been tolerating its nonsense for very long already. But A knows i dun like it and vice versa. I do not like to hang out with A or even talk to it. Now the group is pretty fun to hang out with and thus i hang out with them and well, A as well. so far ive been trying to avoid any form of conversation if possible with A cos A usually has nothing nice to say about me -.-

To tell u the truth i have been wondering to myself. To hang out with a person i do not like, does that make me a hypocrite?

P.S. i went to the dining room to get some buscuits and OMG lady gaga on times magazine. apparently she is one of the top 100 most influential ppl. so i got down and browse tru the pages and..OMG its lee kuan yew! haha just tot i will mention it =P