dream

did you ever had a dream in which felt so real that u wake up all flustered and ... well "emotional" in the sense that u retain the emotion u were having in the dream even after awaking?

well its kind of common for me as i usually remember dreaming of death, usually by gunshot or some horrible death, and when the last breath leaves me i wake up in a state of shock sweating all over. its NOT that i USUALLY dream of this kind of stuff its just that when it happens, the feeling is so disturbing that i remember it. i think someone once told me that it means that my spirit has gone to hell and came back o.O well i will just put it down to too much call of duty or warcraft or whatever... im going off topic lol

so anyway just a few nights back, i had this dream, or nightmare if you would. about a person i dislike alot. lets name the person A. A for asshole that is but back to the story. I cannot really remember the details exactly but we were in a group. then cannot remember wad happened but it must be something catastrophic, like an invasion or smt, cause thats how my dreams usually go. WHAT i remember most clearly was at the end, i was separated from the group and cursing A. apparently, because of A's selfishness, A has doomed the group to a certain death and it still felt like it was not in the wrong.

well, i did not dream long enough to die but i woke up with an intense and, i guess u could say renewed hatred for A.

Yea yea i know. wad a fcked up way to hate someone i know. the thing is, ok lets just say ive been tolerating its nonsense for very long already. But A knows i dun like it and vice versa. I do not like to hang out with A or even talk to it. Now the group is pretty fun to hang out with and thus i hang out with them and well, A as well. so far ive been trying to avoid any form of conversation if possible with A cos A usually has nothing nice to say about me -.-

To tell u the truth i have been wondering to myself. To hang out with a person i do not like, does that make me a hypocrite?

P.S. i went to the dining room to get some buscuits and OMG lady gaga on times magazine. apparently she is one of the top 100 most influential ppl. so i got down and browse tru the pages and..OMG its lee kuan yew! haha just tot i will mention it =P