fever.... FEVER!!!

just some random stuff before i go slp.

when i say i have a fever... it means my body is fcked. aching body and all those. however when i say FEVER!!! it prob means im estatic about something. like on a roll or something haha. patapon much? anyway my fever is down already but my body still feels feverish. as in aching and stuff like that. took panadol just in case.

im sure i need to study. especially since i have a online math test to submit by sunday and next week is filled with tests. but i keep telling myself im sick so that i dun have to study. well at least im making myself sleep early u no. but then im kinda worried for my first test in uni. hope i recover soon u know? so that i dun have to slp so much and all that. actually its good that i can slp well when im sick. insomnia really sucks. oh and for some reason my appetide is back, i dunno y although my taste buds seem to be suffering from the effects of the panadols ive been taking.

i dun like to self medicate. but i dun like seeing the doctor even more. going to the doctor alone really makes u feel pathetic. as if u are not already in a pathetic sickly state. oh this reminds me of how much i would hate to be hospitalised. ever been to a local hospital? its so fcked up. So diff compared to those hospitals u see on tv.. no aircon and ppl who look like they can die any moment sleep just next to you. How fcking depressing is that??? please god, f i were to be hospitalised, at least put me in a coma till i recover fully..

ok to end of my ranting i would like to make a observation. it seems that i have way too many ppl on my ignore list. not toking about msn but that of my real life. those ppl are th ones i would like not to meet and tok to for whatever reasons. added many of them last year haha. i dunno but i feel that i have more then what other ppl will have on thier own list. therefore i have decided that i should not add anybody else on my "ignore" list at least for this year. yep especially this some1 whom i feel is very awkward to meet. from today on whenever i see u i will do my best to tok to u like a normal person..